I Don’t Want to Play this Game Anymore

Almost daily I go for a walk in a beautiful public park just a few steps away from my house. I am very fortunate to live within nature amidst a hustling and bustling city.

As my foot steps past the entry gate of this park, my mind immediately goes to God, a higher power, or whatever you want to call it. I have made a commitment to myself that my time in the park is my time to connect and speak to God. Previously I would go in the early evenings & randomly meet other friends walking and we would then walk and catch up together. As of late however, I prefer to go during the late evenings as I usually do not meet people I know and this allows me to connect and stay focused. This is something I absolutely love doing nowadays because it gives me a feeling of peace that I do not feel during the day when surrounded by family or friends.

One of my practices during my evening walks is to chant the name “RAM”. This is said to bring in divine love & graces us with the power to realize our selves & our inner truths. There is said to be manifold benefits – and I already feel my life has been deeply affected by them & is continuing to change for the better. Another practice I do is to open my heart to God, to tell him what I feel, what I’m going through, & anything that I need to talk about. He knows it all but just as a child speaks to their parent & the parents listen – the exact same thing happens with God. He loves when we remember him, when we speak to him, when our mind or heart calls out to him. They say you take one step towards God and he takes one thousand steps towards you. I do not see this with my physical eyes but I very much feel it – the changes in my life since I have started these practices have been profound. I will share the changes not only in my life but in my entire families lives that have taken place.

During my walks in nature, especially when I am either silent or when I am chanting “RAM”, I get realizations or concepts that are broken down for me to understand easily. One of the early realizations that came to me as once when I was looking at new mall that had just been inaugurated. Right in front of this mall there is a sky train platform along with traffic congestion on the main road right below, hence it was a busy atmosphere as it always is.

Right then, a thought occured to me. This is all just like LEGO, it’s a big toy set … a big illusion, designed to capture and hold our attention just like a child would when playing. The world is designed to keep us constantly looking outside of ourselves and this in turn always leaves us with the feeling of wanting more. Who we are and what we have never seems to be enough! We have so much stimulation on the outside of us that rarely will we ever feel the need to sit down, close our eyes, & go within. Everything outside is designed to look beautiful. You see the bright lights & billboards on buildings, you see the multiple brands of cars that you wish you could upgrade to, you see the things that you wish you could buy, you see the people that you wish you knew, always something or the other.

Then I started realizing, this in fact does seem like its a lego set. Suddenly it feels very superficial, its not real! I don’t want to be another player just playing mindlessly anymore. There does not seem to be any substance to hold onto in this world. These thoughts and sensations came to me at a speed I could not explain to you. I went for a walk into the park that day as what I thought was just another day & I left the park with an entirely different view of life. I suddenly found myself praying to God, telling him that I don’t want to play this game anymore, I know want to get to know the Creator of the game instead. I want my full focus to be on the learning and getting to know the One who designed all of this. I truly was tired of being just a player, I now wanted to rest, to take a break as I saw I was unnecessarily busy playing a game that I never realized I could choose to stop. Oh what a beautiful gift was bestowed to my awareness.

I now pray daily, chant His name, & ask him everyday that he showers his grace on me … so much so that I can hopefully stop playing the game upon my completion from here & hopefully become one with the creator forever.

Lots of Loves to you. RAM RAM.